my nothing became my everything.

{via}

the boy? you ask.

the boy that use to fill my life faded.

swiftly and in slow motion at all the same time.

I look back on the moment I said goodbye and wondered,

"did I know all along? that this would end? did my heart say goodbye long before my head?"

now we have separate lives.

filled with the people of our choosing.

when I see you in passing our eyes meet for a moments breath.

time stands still and we relive those stolen kisses and sly smiles.

{those lips that belong to someone else now.

the ones I use to know perfectly.

are now just a fuzzy memory.}

when time snaps into place,

you nod.

I nod.

silently acknowledging what once was.

and will never be.

It's a strange thing how someone who was everything becomes your nothing all at once.

and the person who is everything was always once your nothing.

now I'm with my everything.

and you are with yours.

it can take a lifetime to find your everything.

I'm just content that I found mind.

finally.yh

we meet again.

{via}

hello.

we meet again.

even thought time has grown and so have we,

we meet together like old friends with lots of familiarity.

still the same.

totally different.

appearances have shifted some.

[where did I go?]

I was never truly gone.

just lost in the thoughts and dreams of my unstopped mind.

they were bottled up for far too long. 

they started leaking long ago.

so I let them out.

and now I'm left to stitch them back again.

I'll smile at you,

you'll smile at me.

knowing the years have passed.

silently acknowledging the settlement of our new relationship.

however unhealthy it may be.

I'll always come back for words.

that's a promise.

so here we are,

two fast friends just living this thing we call life.

lets share some words, pick up where we left off.

and tell our life some more.

hearts content.

joy. happiness. warmth. pleasure. gratification.
those are the feelings that settle in after a long day of contentment.

like when you watch the passing cars.
almost feeling what they hold when they pass by.
you're content.
just letting the air swish you where it may.

the moment a smile touches your lips.
when you can't help it.
when it is repressed.

the satisfaction that cross someone else's face.
contentment blossoms.
leaving a deep soothe.

being content is a simple pleasure.
one that requires simple efforts and scattered thoughts.

are you content?
i am content.
finally.

the sea.

the sea, it stands between you and me.

slowly kissing the shore.

you breathe, and i take a sigh.

both knowing we wanted more.

you utter something that i can't quite hear.

it slips over the expanse of the sea.

i just wave in a pathetic attempt.

musing over thoughts of what could be.

the mist brushes my face and the salt burns my throat.

dripping down the coast for you.

swaying in and out of the tides.

tonight, let me be one with its blue. 

i try to cross the cresting water to you.

but the current drags me far too deep.

a tear gets swallowed by the sea,

and all i can find to do is weep.

the sea, it will always stand between you and me.

slowly kissing the shore.

you breathe, and i take a sigh.

both knowing we wanted more.

bones.

oh you laugh like i'll be there to hold you always

always here

i'm aways here, always here.

when you can't sleep at night.

"pretty little lady with the swollen eyes, would you show them to me?

i know i'm not perfect, but just stay awhile 

baby, then you will see...

miles away i can still feel you lay your head down on my embrace, my embrace.

far away...

don't give up baby i know that its shaky, just let love consume us."

summer snow.

[via]

summer 2012.

things just came easy for us.

we drove with the windows down hand-in-hand; while the sun warmed our skin and the wind whipped my hair. you would blast foster the people through the speakers; so loud that i couldn't quite hear you singing to me.

we stopped at our favorite snow shack like we always did on hot summer days. you were adventurous when it came to snow cones; trying different assortment of flavors every time, while i stuck to my cotton candy syrup.

your lips were icy when you kissed me, and you tasted like tigers blood. those were the kind of sweet kisses that made my head fall into a fuzz.

things were so natural for us. it was like breathing. i was truly happy with you and i wanted a million moments exactly like that one.

things seemed to be flawless before you left.