my nothing became my everything.


the boy? you ask.
the boy that use to fill my life faded.
swiftly and in slow motion at all the same time.

I look back on the moment I said goodbye and wondered,
"did I know all along? that this would end? did my heart say goodbye long before my head?"

now we have separate lives.
filled with the people of our choosing.

when I see you in passing our eyes meet for a moments breath.
time stands still and we relive those stolen kisses and sly smiles.

{those lips that belong to someone else now.
the ones I use to know perfectly.
are now just a fuzzy memory.}

when time snaps into place,
you nod.
I nod.
silently acknowledging what once was.
and will never be.

It's a strange thing how someone who was everything becomes your nothing all at once.
and the person who is everything was always once your nothing.

now I'm with my everything.
and you are with yours.
it can take a lifetime to find your everything.
I'm just content that I found mind.


we meet again.


we meet again.

even thought time has grown and so have we,
we meet together like old friends with lots of familiarity.

still the same.
totally different.
appearances have shifted some.

[where did I go?]
I was never truly gone.
just lost in the thoughts and dreams of my unstopped mind.

they were bottled up for far too long. 
they started leaking long ago.

so I let them out.
and now I'm left to stitch them back again.

I'll smile at you,
you'll smile at me.
knowing the years have passed.

silently acknowledging the settlement of our new relationship.
however unhealthy it may be.
I'll always come back for words.
that's a promise.

so here we are,
two fast friends just living this thing we call life.

lets share some words, pick up where we left off.
and tell our life some more.