numb.

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numb.
what does it mean to me?
[i dont know]
but i know what it feels like.

i feel disentangled from everyone and everything that surrounds me.
im just floating.
not connected to anything at all.
no meaning.

why do i have to be the one that carries all of this weight?
why do i feel utterly and completely alone?

a wedge has been shoved between all aspects of my life.
im unsure & have become unbalanced.
i could tip over at any moment.

people think that my life is happy.
that i'm happy.
im not.

truth.
what does that mean?
its just a word that people fall for.
that people trust in.
just because someone says they're honest doesn't mean they are.

im too numb to cry.
too sick of feeling this way.
and the truth is, i want to cry.
i want to feel any spark at all.
no matter how small.

it's time to make a change.
to take charge.
i'm unashamed.